waking up so mehed up that you go to your garden in shorts and start weeding because pulling the ones out that you didn’t plant feels right and you don’t care if the misqueeters are biting you because you know the itch and the swell are temporary, but totally, totally care that you kill them mid-bite; it isn’t a symptom.


It’s a solution.




Hey folks,


Blame is a pretty darn useless emotion, i’in’t it?

It’s weird; when I was young I played games, shmoked, and avoided homework too much.
Today, the exact converse applies, and I’m actually excited about the H-word.
It’s to get my butt CAMS certified, cause I think it’s a mighty investment for some great jobs out there.  In many ways, that little certificate seems more valuable than any old BA, and yesh, I’m excited.

Finished my first draft for BAHAMUT today.



Ya know, when I finished Disjuncture, Victor walked in the room right after, even though it was dawn.

Today, it was Jaidree.

I hope this book shows as much improvement as life already carries.


Anyway, I get to break, and then the real work / scary part begins.


I just made (blue)fish head soup.



I was feeling experimental, and J and I hit the fish market yesterday (I love that place, you can buy a whole fish, and they’ve got a worker who will gut and clean and slice is up for you, and his hands move like a blur — he earns his tip, every time)


and, the head was left over, again.


I hate wasting animals.  And I knew before today, that there was a such thing as “fish head soup/stew” but

I didn’t know it was also Jamaican.  I thought it’d be an Indian thing, or a chinese thing, or whatever….cause I see them selling fish heads in chinatown all the time (fun fact: salmon fish heads are damn cheap, and still meaty, and good for cat owners)



Anyway, I started off by frying said head of the fishy.  Olive oil, salt, lil brazing water, throw it in a wok, cover, and bam


I went to pick herbs

Then I stripped the meat, even though I read the ENTIRE head is edible.   I included the eyeball, because it ends in ball, and you are what you eat, and there are two of them.

I am balls


Then kale, diced squash, fresh parsley, fresh basil, cherry tomatoes, fresh sage, tumeric, thyme, papricka, salt, peppah watah, HEAD OF THE BLUE FEESH, 3 chicken bones in the water to make it more brothy, garlic, yellow cherry tomatoes for garnishes and flavor pops….took 10 whole minutes.


Put it over yesterday’s rice n beans.  (btw, I GREW AND SHOOK THE BEANZ MAHSELF!)
And at first it was just “hey not bad”

then I added the correct amount of salt



I originally made this cause I didn’t want to waste food, and I figured before J gets home I could make a thing that was beyond her comfort zone

but now I find myself saving her some.


I love experimental cooking that isn’t fail.



PS:eyeballs aren’t the worst, but they kind of absorb lots of salt and aren’t the best either.