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My last

My last pack of cigarettes was bought in Feb of 2023. I still have ~12 of them. I started vaping so I can’t say I’ve kicked nicotine, but my mile time increased dramatically as soon as I switched.

Now, this isn’t entirely true. When I went to cancun I bought a pack to enjoy in the smoking section. But that was in cancun. Let’s not let the truth get in the way of this narrative this time: somehow, it doesn’t count.

My last vape was purchased last week. I got sick with something respiratory, and noticed that the girl I’ve been seeing got sick after, but recovered faster than me. W, tf. I spent 4 days having a hard time breathing and coughing (which kind of sucks when you’re training for something, let alone two things). Two days ago, I had my stupid green vape — something in my hand when I go to sleep and wake up and all these times in between, and it was next to me in bed. That part of brain that connects know-lee-gee with body observations went “You know not vaping is absolutely better for bronchitis than antibiotics” but a different part of it still wanted to suck that green dicky thing of stupid and then
my BODY didn’t want to.

I’m pretty sure because my hand grabbed vape 1 and 2 (yes I had two) and threw them at the door in such a way that they richocheted and flew down my entire long-ass apartment. I realized it was done when the second one bounced out of sight.

Anyway, spent 2 days recovering and acting like breathing air is therapy. I managed to not strangle anyone at work today very easily — it turns out that for me it’s only an addiction if I think of it like an addiction. It’s just a stupid unhealthy habit that might kill me but definitely gives me an excuse to lose at racing myself, which is pathetic. The streak of not sucking will continue because I rule. The end.

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